Starting to Crack!!
Hey all, welcome back! I hope everyone is doing well and keeping their distance. It’s tough going for us all but by doing our bit, we are pushing this fucking thing away hopefully. Firstly to anyone who has been directly affected by Covid-19 my thoughts and prayers are with you. This is just an awful time and I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. Keep strong! My reasons for today's post are... I’m not quite sure. Whenever I sit down to write a blog I always have a thought process. I always have something in mind as to what I’m trying to say. But the past few days I haven’t been feeling myself. I’m starting to feel a little lost. I do genuinely think I’m starting to crack a little. I’m starting to lose my patience, I’m starting to feel low. And I know I shouldn’t be feeling like this. I have internet, TV, and Disney+ (if you haven’t subscribed to it then do, its amazing).
But one thing that is really playing on my mind is my family. Oh my god, this is the longest I have spent away from them ever! A FaceTime call from my sister and my nephew once a day is what is really getting me through this right now. Chatting to my folks on the phone is helping me too, but what I really want is a hug. I’m missing giving my mom a hug when I see her, or even giving my Dad a manly hug when I see him. I’m cracking up. This is the thing for many of us 30 somethings we took these little hugs for granted. Never ever again will I take one of those for granted. I last saw my family a month ago and right now it feels a lifetime ago. My Mum would always ask the same question a few times or never listen to the answer I gave. It would drive me mad. I mean I would complain to her for not listening. Mum if you are reading this, I cannot wait until you ask me the same question a million times!! To my Dad who would always say to me Let me show you this clip on YouTube and I would just look at him and say later, I will sit down and watch every Youtube video with you and never complain again. I would give anything right now to be there with them having a chat. I cannot wait to be there with you again. To my amazing little Superstar that is my nephew, I’m so gutted to be missing out on you growing up but I promise you my little man when this is over, I will never leave you this long again. I made a promise I will always be there for you and I know I can't keep that promise right now but when this is done I will always be there. I have spent 4 weeks away from my family but It got me thinking about everyone out there who has lost a parent or both, you are the strongest people. I have so much newfound admiration for your strength. And I know that one day I too will be in the same boat as you and it scares the living shit out of me.
Listening to the radio this morning a presenter made a really good point. We should all be thinking and acting like we have the virus. It would make us think twice about going out. Rather than act like you are trying to avoid the virus, start acting like you are trying to prevent someone else from catching it. Remember the quicker we take notice and stay inside the quicker we will get this under control. The sooner we do this the sooner we will all be able to hug our loved ones and start doing those little things we all so badly miss right now.